Thanks for your support, everyone. I have a tendency to freeze up in new social environments, even ones on the internet!

Regarding my studies, what I want to go into is really unconventional and pretty new as a field, namely the study of gender in visual culture. I guess part of the reason it hurts so much that my family doesn't support my studies is that it triggers feelings of insecurity and uncertainty I have buried in my psyche.

And the third anniversary of my mom's passing is less than a week and a half away, and I don't have anyone to lean on. It's weird, it seems to get harder every year dealing with her absence... I guess I'm always wondering whether or not she'd be proud of me, and if she'd support my studies. Life would be so much different if she were still around.

Plus, being stuck at home again, I can't see my therapist at college or my psychiatrist (meds aren't working, so I really need to see him). I guess all I can do for now is bide my time and hope for the best. Thanks everyone! ((((((everyone))))))

-J