I'm feeling a tiny spark of motivation, which is a big deal for me.

I'm not sure if it's motivation or just obsession but I guess obsession is a kind of motivation. It happens when I'm working on something specific. I really get into it and don't stop thinking about it until I think I've finished. It can take several sessions to finish the work and sometimes it spans a couple of days.

But when I'm done, the motivation is gone like it was never there. But I remember what I felt at the time and I try to replicate that in other parts of my life. It hasn't worked so far but there's hope.

I'm in physical pain but that's because of exercise. It's intense and my body isn't as strong as it once was.