(((((((((((Silversparrow)))))))))))

Okay, first. Breathe. Put down the paper clip. Try to put it away, or throw it out.

Okay, being depressed (which can lead to SI) is *not* your fault. It can happen to anyone, whether they have what they call a "good life" or not. It doesn't necessarily matter.

You are not horrible or selfish. You are hurting, and although it really hurts - it does not mean you're a bad person, at all. You are not a monster. Not at all. I've seen your posts here, and I can safely say that you're a person with your own things to deal with - but that you're also really supportive of others. You have a big heart. That's the truth, you are not a monster.

You are not alone either, I'm here. I'm here as long as you need me. Please be safe.

If you can't go to work tonight, that's okay. Everyone needs a break from stress for a bit, just call them and tell them that you're sick. Do you have anyone who you can talk to by phone or in person who knows about the SI? What about calling a hotline so you can calm down?

Just close your eyes. Remember to breathe. Imagine happy and *positive* things. Keep breathing. You can do that.