(((((((((Twinmommy)))))))) I'm sorry you're feeling so low right now. If it's any consolation, I feel that mothers are some of the most underappreciated people on the planet. I can't imagine how difficult it must be to exhibit such selfless devotion. I think it's perfectly natural to have feelings of despair when you have to give so much of yourself.
What kind of stressors are you facing at work? Maybe if you talk them out with us on the forum, we can try to help you get a grasp on them and figure out a way to solve them. At the very least, we'll give you our love and support. 
I don't think you have anything to be ashamed about. Being a mother is incredibly demanding, beautiful, and so very important. Make sure to take care of yourself. Maybe you can hire a babysitter for a night and go out and enjoy yourself? Take care and keep posting.
J
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"One by one, as they march, our comrades vanish from our sight, seized by the silent orders of omnipotent death. Very brief is the time in which we can help them, in which their happiness or misery is decided. Be it ours to shed sunshine on their path, to lighten their sorrows by the balm of sympathy, to give them the pure joy of a never-tiring affection, to stregthen failing courage, to instill faith in hours of despair."
-Bertrand Russell
With love and hope,
<~/J\~>
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