Out of a hurry I missed my morningpills. 300mg x2 Ergenyl. But I’m okay, I have done that before. More and more that 5mg olanzapine I take every night (along with another dose of Ergenyl - 300mg x2) is making me dozy. But not in the night, it’s happening in the morning. I have three (!) alarms set on different times (10 minutes apart) and I can barely get up.

I’m also trying to speed up another meeting with my local psychiatrist clinic instead of waiting six months. I mean MY GOD what a amount of time for us patients, but it can be also worse. Up to one year like it also happened to me. And the psychiatrists (docs) are rented on temporary contract. Then new one comes and knows absolutely nothing about you more than it says in the journals.

And now I’m waiting for my certificate to be fixed. Many good things can be said about Sweden, even it’s health care. But psychiatrically care is among the worst on this planet. Especially in my town. Some towns doesn’t even have any psychiatrically care at all. And yet there are 1226 people who in 2021 committed suicide. Among them 873 men and 353 women. 11 children under 15. That’s the reality here, dear reader. Far from all of our mental health care are “milk and honey”.

I’m doing my best to do my regular routines. Go as much as possible to the gym (I go four times a week), hang out with my friend (I have almost 400 friends on Facebook but it feels that I have perhaps three or four who are my real). Much thanks to my eager parents that are my true support is why I haven’t get sickened again. Or got any relapse. I take moment by moment, day by day. I have wonderful colleagues who care also about me and a boss too.

Now I just finished my Yoga-tea, which is some sort of night-tea. It relax me, when I prepare myself for the bed. I hope I will write here tomorrow again. See you!

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