I've tried to find a T..actually have found one I would like to see..I'm just to chicken to call..I did once but I missed her and she called me back left me a voicemail..I never called back though..I'm to scared to admit I am all messed up..I'm scared that by telling a thearpist all the bad thoughts, all the bad feelings, all the bad things I do I will hurt my family and friends..I can't hurt them..I can't stand to see that look in my parents eyes again..no tears..no no no no..