Hard not to be hard on myself. I hold very high standards for myself that I don't hold anyone else to, when I fail I hate myself. Been thinking like that for ages And I always feel worthless, feel stupid, feel hated, means I am.

Had a terrible night last night I want to curl up and fade away. I hate pretending to be alright IRL sometimes.
But my friends are pretty much all idiots anyways and hate me. Why do I always have run-ins with such mean people