My self esteem is in the toilet. If I don't find someone to appreciate my love then I don't feel life is worth living anymore. I should have left years ago but was too afraid to be alone. Even though her track record is of leaving me high and dry a few times in my life. Our relationship is a sickness. It's an addiction. There's so many women out there who say they can't find a good man , well I'm a good man yet I can't find anyone to love. Where are you all ? Why can't I get off of this ferris wheel of life that goes nowhere ?