That's a tough question. I don't know exactly what I would do if I was in your shoes.

One thing I do with regard to tough decisions is write out a list of pros and cons of various actions. Then I rank them in importance in terms of my value system and what is most important to me personally. I find it helpful to write out the list and then look at it a day or so later so things can settle in my mind.

Sometimes this approach helps. Sometimes not so much. Hopefully others here will have more helpful ideas for you. Best of luck on whatever you decide!