I woke up at 4 am this morning, unable to sleep.

I am really excited for my interview, but I am a bit freaked over having a roommate. I am used to living alone and prefer it. I haven't lived with roommates since 2012, or for 11 years. I like my solitude and privacy. ARGH. Well, let's see. From 2014-2018, I lived with mom and dad. And then I lived with my husband. I had roommates when I lived in Oregon for a year in 2012. But in prior years, I had lived alone a LOT of the time.

What choice do I have? If I want to keep my apartment, if I don't want to have to move in with my mother, and if I want to save any money for my future, I almost HAVE to get a roommate. AND, with a roommate, I can be out of debt in one year.

My mother says to send my personal loan all back and she will help me pay my monthly expenses. She doesn't like the high interest on my loan, so she says she will loan me the money until I get a job. And with a roommate sharing expenses with me, I will have to borrow a lot less per month from my mother to make ends meet.

And I have my routines... I get up very early in the mornings, like at 4,4:30, 5 or 5:30. I turn on CNN at that time. I like to watch a lot of movies at night, lounging in my living room with my kitty. I go out and sometimes get home very late. I have a new guy on the scene, who is coming to visit again next week. He will likely be visiting from time to time, as long as we keep seeing each other.

This potential roommate says he's pretty busy. He teaches music, he has a part-time job, and he goes to nursing school. If he's not home that much, it will help. I am home a lot these days.

This will be a BIG adjustment for me. IF he's cool, laid back, and easy to get along with, it will really help. I did get the sense that he is all those things.

Oh man.... I am not too thrilled about this. And I think that's why I woke up at 4 am.