I would love to say I do feel like we will find a way to work together, but I can't. I can't see how it's ever going to be possible, and so I feel I have to look elsewhere for someone to work with. Someone gentler. Someone who won't push me off a cliff. Someone who can work creatively. Someone who will help me find other ways of connecting and communicating. Talking isn't the only way, and sitting in that god awful chair, session after session, is starting to make me feel like a failure. That's not what I come to therapy for.