((( Silver ))) it's very good that you did that, those are great steps to feeling better. I know it is hard to put on a mask. Sorry you are still shaking.

Could you take public transit? I really think I T would help a lot. Do you have anonymous help lines where you live? There is a great one up here and they also help many people, and it is free and anonymous.

A good T won't push for too many questions, they will let you talk if/when you are ready to talk. there is no rush in talking about scary things. You are NOT weak- you are a strong person. I am sure they would not lock you away.

You CAN cry.