I have not had a life since my ex-husbands parole. I feel like a prisoner in my house. I could cry or scream I don't know wich one to do first. I had a life before this, friends, times out with my boyfriend, dinners out with the kids. We had a life and now it seems to be long gone. I don't know what will become of us now? Will we ever get through this mess? My family and friends keep telling me to stay strong but I just want to say to them how? How can you expect me to deal with this? I am a strong person but for Gods sake I need a brake. I'm falling apart fast. Now my counselor tells me I should leave the state and I have taken all of the steps to make that a reality. Leave the state where I was born and raised and run off!! Leave my 71 year old mother and not know when me and the kids will see her again. Take every last dollar that we have and spend it to run away from this man who just 9 years ago tried to murder my son and I.

Someone please tell me if there is ever justice. I have two kids that I have raised with ko help from their father's and this is the thanks that I get! One big kick in the teeth! I am 30 years old and I swear that I have never known a peaceful day in my life. I am truly heart broken and don't know what to do. Life is cruel and maybe thats the end period. Is that realy it....?