It's interesting that you bring this up.
I came across some old pictures from various points in my life and the feeling was surreal.
It feels as though I have memory lapses, or that I've buried the past in deep chambers. I have a difficulty reconciling who I am in this present time with my past selves. So I end up feeling pretty disjointed or fragmented.
The only thing I can think of to integrate my sense of self is by perhaps keeping a journal or scrapbook and looking at photos more often. For the past that has happened, I could perhaps write small chapters of various segments of my life and telling my story through my present day eyes; but, to do this, I think I'm going to have to deal with grief. I've had a lot of loss, or that I am so sensitive that those losses seem bigger to me than they would for the average person. Maybe that's why I've buried parts of myself in deep chambers.
Thoughts?
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