It started with me simply saying that she should take care of her own health from now on. She hung up the phone on me. The back story is that my younger sister who lives with her, hasn't been faffing about after her as usual. My middle sister Sara started another job at my brother's old place. Her work hours have been 8.00-8.30pm, so 12 hour shifts. She doesn't want to spend extra time with her.

When I accepted a call from my father I told him I didn't want to talk to her which she heard and she started swearing at me amongst other things.

It was Mother's day on sunday in the UK which added to stuff. It's the memories that falling out with her that brought out.

I spent the past three days crying and I allowed myself to get distracted.

I hate my BPD brain. I don;t knwo what Is me and what is my illness. and I still find it so hard to calm myself down when I get like this. I'm still crying on and off today.