I'm not sure. I am longing to do some unhealthy behavior (SH) but I am trying not to. I wish I could have another session with my T this week and I kind of hinted at it but didn't ask directly (I know, that's on me). I did a bit of journaling. I am trying to figure out what things are soothing to me and when they would be soothing. Like last night I was laying in bed and I had the comforter on, but not the sheet and the ceiling fan was on and my dog, Zoey, was laying by me. It was comforting and soothing (I am trying to learn how to self-soothe! It's so hard!) and I found that soothing but it wouldn't be soothing if I was in an intensely or even moderately distressed state. I was in a relaxed state so it was soothing. I need to learn how to soothe myself when I am more distressed.