I see you being so hard on yourself and my heart aches for you. Your brutle past has stolen you future.
As a frog of little brain I have no idea where to tell you to start but the is a way up. There are gifts you have that make you a special person. Finding a way to release your pain and find those gifts. It won't necessarily be easy but well worth the effort.
You're a very special person give yourself a chance.
((((( Griffe )))))
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kebs
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