Can never get the trigger stuff to work on my "smart"phone but here goes

Trigger warning from this point onwards
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One thing my abusive ex would do is threaten suicide if i didnt do as he wanted

He also said he would make sure i had two kids cause he wanted them, i have never wanted kids

He wouldnt allow protection in the house for either of us and even though fire is a major fear of mine, he wouldnt allow me to wear anything in bed at night, he would literally hide my pajamas so i couldnt wear them