yeah i think i am going to get a second opinion.

and NP, if you are pathetic for needing someone help you (that you pay), then i am in that boat! I even have two therapists. lol

seriously though, it sucks when you are reminded
of the transactional nature of the relationship. That is only a small part of the relationship as well. I think it os great that you have a good relationship with him. Despite all the ambiguity going on