I did find ECT helpful, just not as helpful as it’s been in the past for me. It pulled me up enough that I’m no longer suicidal so that’s good, but in the past it’s brought me completely out of depression for a good long while. Not this time.

I haven’t tried TMS bc it hasn’t been covered by insurance but I’ve tried pretty much everything else. The one medication that works for me is called Emsam and it’s hard to get drs to prescribe it because it’s an MAOI. There’s dietary restrictions that go along with it and drs don’t think I want to deal with that. Well I want to deal with depression less, I’m perfectly willing to deal with not eating cheddar cheese if that’s what it takes.

I’m going to ask my new pdoc for it and see what he says. Can’t hurt to just ask.