@RDMercer just checking in to see how things are going. I know you are trying very hard and facing some realities that are very hard to face.

I bring up your children because I know that it’s important to understand how crucial it is for a child to know and feel that a parent really loves them and will be there if needed. I saw a short video the other day of a little girl on a stage for some school thing and she was worried and stressed until she saw the parent (or parents) that she knew loved her and she lit up with so much joy and excitement. That is more important then a big house or a clean house or wealth.

When you share how much you want your wife to see and love you and she pushes you away etc, and you feel undeserving? That is how a child feels, they are left alone on the stage and no one “special” shows up.

A child can have two parents and yet FEEL like an orphan. A child can grow up in poverty yet are rich when they feel they are loved. No child should have to hide in their room and FEAR a parent.