I have surgery friday, it's a simple outpatient procedure. Removing a ployp from my rectum.
My dr thinks I stopped my blood thinner too soon and still have a blood clot. he wants me on lifetime blood thinners. Due to my history of blood clots. He's probably right, but I hate blood thinners. I have to avoid my favorite veggies.
I want to be healthy in life but I want to die and a blood clot may be my sudden death and my dr is trying to prevent it.
I've been married 3x what am I supposed to go for 4? Marriage sucks for me it's awful. I give up. Basically I enjoy life but my mom is going to die, than what?
First my dad's death was hell on me. That's when I cracked. Yes I'd have an inheritance but that doesn't matter to me except when it does.
I'm just stuck in these feelings. I'm eating my feelings today. 4 days til surgery.