How do you deal with hopelessness? When you feel like nothing you ever do will change things so you don't even bother trying anymore. That's what I feel and have felt for a long time.
I recently quit my job because I wanted to take a break. However I have no motivation to work again because I feel like no matter how much I work or how much money I earn in a regular 9-5 job I will never have the life I want or do the things I want to do. Things have gotten so expensive, housing market in my area is crap and unattainable anymore.
I'm stuck living at home with my parents, no relationships with anyone, no friends. And to top it off I'm in my 40's which is the worst. Most everyone my age has moved on and has a family of their own or at least doing something. Me I'm stuck in what feels like perpetual teenage years.
I have also had and currently have some unknown health issue that has been plaguing me on and off all these year which has had impact on my daily life. I keep going to the doctor for answers but nothing conclusive has come up so far. And I desperately want to feel good but can't. So there is some hopelessness with respect to my health as well.
I don't know what path will bring me success and get out of this rut. I feel like time is running out for me to 'catch up' and I wonder if I ever will.
I tried counselling but they were promoting this mode of therapy called ACT which didn't really help me much. Not sure what else to do.
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