Met my new pdoc, he’s good enough. Not amazing but friendly and didn’t make me feel bad about anything. I’m not sure I trust him because I said SSRI’s make me manic and he decided to put me on a low dose of lexapro anyway. He thinks because I’m on so much anti-manic medication right now it shouldn’t be an issue. He said try the 5mg of lexapro and then come back in two weeks. In two weeks I will be doubling my propranolol dose as per his instructions.

So we’ll see how this goes. I’m nervous, I don’t want to go manic but maybe he’s right about the mood stabilizers keeping me in check. I won’t know unless I try.