No moderator is going to be cruel to you here.

However, if your behaviour is deemed unacceptable by the site standards, you may be banned.

I still think your safest bet is to make a commitment to sign off until the episode has passed. You are aware of your own behaviour and you've suffered the repercussions previously. Take steps to make sure that doesn't happen again. You and only you are responsible for your behaviour.

Go scream into a pillow to get the energy out of you if necessary.