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I'm not here long at all, and look, that doesn't matter around here.
We can jump right in anywhere with out point of view and life experience, because it all matters. Your point of view matters.
So, studying the visual of gender culture (did I get that right, lol)!
This sounds exciting. And cutting edge.
You could go for it and not look back on what others would prefer for you because they don't have to actually do what they want you to... and say something like 'so sorry, no can do'. Humor them.

Or change the subject.
About your Mom, I am so sorry.
Have you thought about a job over the summer to keep you busy and help you sock away a few bucks?
Also, does your father have anyone on his side who can help him out, like a sister or something, you can call and talk to about his current difficulties.
It might be time to apply for medicare or ssi on his behalf so that he can get coverage for health problems, pay for expenses, and to even pay for a caregiver to assist him
in daily living. It might be worth your while to check out a senior network in your area, and go in - with an appointment, to discuss your household as they have knowledge of all the resourses available for people over 55, and in some cases, 50.
My best to you in your endeavors ...
I do hope you will stick around here, at least for the summer while you are dealing with your grief - and household responsibility .... because we all care. I know I do too.
peace and love,
nightbird

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