Struggling yesterday and today.

There are basic things, little things, that go way back for her and I. There's a genre of movies we've always really enjoyed, there are things we did to mark the change of the seasons, sayings that have a history and mean something within our home. I just wish I had her to share those things with.

It mattered to me to have those things with my partner. I love my kids, but I miss adult interactions. They happened so rarely with my wife, but the good ones were really good.

Something that has changed, and that is hard to explain...

I always felt like I was overwhelmed, like I was in over my head, like I needed someone to take some of my responsibilities from me, like I needed someone almost to save me. That feeling is greatly reduced, practically gone these days.

I don't know why.

Someone better kick my ***** before I try texting her.

RDM