That's just it; I would not leap to find a condition that I fit. I would only provide that I feel sometimes a passenger on a runaway train heading for some impending disaster with nothing to do but watch. I know it's an overused analogy, but it is the best way I can describe it because I know of no other way.

I have periods of success; ten years in the military, a B.S. in Computer Information Technology, some awards, competitive sports victories and such.

But I find that I cannot organize. I do not keep notes. I cannot break down tasks (related to my career) or follow them through without them being perfectly linear. So, I cannot multitask as I should. I have fleeting thoughts which come at any given moment. Everyone does, do they not? But mine have the capability of moving me off-task to research that particular thought, no matter how important the latter task was. There was a show called "The Pretender" that I related to; but would not go as far as to say that I could be a savant or prodigy. For example, today I looked into the prospects of me being a helicopter pilot. Not in an innocent wishful thinking way; I, in all seriousness, wanted to pursue that lifelong dream, right now.

I am a computer geek, which one day said, "Hey, I might want to do this as a career" so I went to college and earned a degree in the field. Yet, I find that I want to leave the field for something, anything other than information technology. It's clear that I am not happy with what is going on and where I am, but I do believe that you're right. None of these symptoms exclusively belong to the ADH Disorder.

I have heard the other saying before as well; that it can be leveraged, to paraphrase.

We'll see. Just so happens that my former Psychology professor is a Clinical Psychologist; though I would never solicit for her time, I would be sure to ask that she point me in the right direction.

I will add as well that those who are diagnosed with ADHD do not have ownership or the rights to be classified as such. Or, those who are not, do not have the rights to think that they do; I would waiger that there's a large percentage of persons walking the world who legitimately need identification and help. I would not want to be the one who muddy's the water for the rest.

Oh, and I took both quizzes, the long and short.... scored pretty high. I am sure not to hold stock in their ability to gauge my issue; but in both cases the scores warranted a message that I should seek a professional opinion or two. And, perhaps I should.

I want to deal with this at the lowest level for the time being.