I’ve had five days without a panic attack and two days in a row without depression. Maybe the low dose lexapro is working? My average heart rate is a lot lower according to my Apple Watch which means I’m less physically anxious I think. I’m a bit less mentally anxious though I did have a bit of a problem on Friday when RS didn’t come home from work right away. I get worried that he’s going to get into an accident. He told me he was going to be late but I still didn’t know when to expect him by so I got a little anxious. But I had a bad day overall on Friday so I’m sure that had something to do with it.

Yesterday I woke up feeling better though and today I feel almost normal. I’m so relieved just to have two days off from that crushing depression. I hope it continues and doesn’t turn to hypomania but I have no signs of hypomania yet. Sleep is my first signal and I’m still sleeping well.

Yesterday we had a crazy storm rip through. The sky turned pitch black and then green so we hightailed it down to the basement. A tornado warning came up a minute after we noticed the sky. Poor CR gets very scared of storms so he was freaking out. Thankfully we didn’t have any damage. I heard it hail but it must have been small enough. My mom (who lives 10 minutes from us) said she had huge hail and she lost power. Thankfully we didn’t lose power. A town twenty minutes southeast of us did have a tornado touch down and rip up a bunch of trees and power lines.

Temperatures are finally supposed to warm up this week. It’s supposed to be gorgeous on Tuesday which is nice because it’s my birthday. We’re going to go to the Cheesecake Factory so I can have my annual slice of red velvet cheesecake.