Isn't it strange how we can live a pattern like that and not realize just what it was we were doing?

I'm continually taken aback by revelations about my own life, frequently thinking something along the lines of "Why did I accept that as normal? Why did I think it was okay to be treated that way?"

It can be a lot to digest.

There are a couple of good YT channels that help deal with childhood trauma, if you are interested in pursuing that end of things at this point, I can give you the names of the ones I like. It can be a good place to move to once you are the central focus of your life again.

Hope today is a good day.