Thank you so much ladies & gentlemen for your supportive advices. I feel like all suddenly I have gained virtual family members. I feel empowered and no longer have fear. Believe or not, my kids are stronger and smarter than me. Since my eldest child was 14 years old,(8 years ago) she had pointed out about her dad’s abusiveness and told me that I should leave her dad but I thought he just has anger issues and I was hoping that one day he would change. I was also afraid of going through a divorce because my younger daughter was only 8 years old. My younger daughter was afraid the family breakup and she had told me many times that she had always prayed for our family to be together. Fast forward, 8 years later, my younger daughter is 15 years old ( going to be 16 soon) and she has wished that she and I should escape from her dad. Both my children saw the problems too. They said that their dad have traumatized them. They have been seeing therapists separately. One thing I am happy about my kids that they are very strong individuals. I once again thank you all for your supports. I know what I should do with my life now . I rather be single and no longer live in fear.