Hi Have Hope,
Thank you so much for sharing your story. What you have described is exactly what I have been going through. I feel relieved that I am not alone. I still can't believe that I have put up this long. I finally see the light at the end of a tunnel. It will be a scary road ahead and will be rough emotionally and physically. I believe that I will go through it and come out alive one day hopefully . I will continue to come to this forum for mental supports. Hopefully one day , I could tell you all that I am healed. It won't be easy on my end because I have invested so much time and energy for this marriage.