Okay, I didn't know where to put this, so... here we go.

I feel so ridiculous. I don't know if something is wrong with me or if I'm just a weirdo. Over the years I've been pretty isolated and tend to be incredibly lonely. I have imaginary friends I talk to. I'm 20 now and I still have imaginary friends when I get lonely. I talk to them, I walk around with them, I turn to them for comfort when there's no one else. I don't see them, I know they're not real, but they play an important role in my life when I'm alone. I feel like an idiot. What is up with this? Who has to turn to imaginary friends when they are 20? What is wrong with me?

Me and the one person who I turn to have gotten very distant recently, so I just caught myself talking to an imaginary friend. It happens a lot, I won't even realize I'm doing it, then somebody real will walk into the room and I'm like "wtf am I doing?" and stop. And its not just that I'm talking to an imaginary friend in my house or wherever I am; the scenery will change, I'll be in a completely different place, with crowds of people here and there and a whole scene playing out. I know its not real but I get completely wrapped up in it and often don't realize its happening until something else distracts me and I snap back into reality.

I feel so stupid and I'm afraid one of these days somebody's actually going to catch me talking like there's someone there when there isn't. Then I'll feel really embarrassed. What is wrong with me?