I spent most the night flip flopping and beating myself up over things I never got to do with my life. My Father had my college all figured out when I graduated high school in 1985.. nursing school. What did I do ?? Blew it off. I went to work for medical doctors as medical assistant and thought I was doing the right thing. Undiagnosed Bipolar looking back.

Anyway I never did get in the position to ever go to college to get my RN

I often think how my life would be different if I had a career I longed for and the good financial state I would have been in instead of this brutal struggle to keep the basics going. I never thought my life would funnel into this sometimes miserable place.

There is no way to change things and go for it now when I’m plagued with such health problems.

I know that I have been blessed with Amanda and Steve.

I dunno I just wish my current circumstances where different.

Anyway I’m done *****ing.

Mantra * stop complaining *

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