Thanks rainbow. I finally got my medicine in the mail so I restarted them tonight. I'm having trouble thinking I'm not just a waste of space. Hardly getting out of bed. my teeth are going to cost 20-60k that's not happening. So I'm basically doing nothing about my teeth until I absolutely have to. I'm not willing to have dentures under 40. There's no temp to permanent fix. So I'll just wait. We're drowning here and I still hate it. Yesterday was nice we said **** it and went to a matinee. Miguel is struggling hard. He has no friends here. And his meds are off. He likes the idea of here. Though he says he's never moving out again. Doesn't even want a duplex anymore. Wants a generational house. We'll see he's 20 things may change. I'm not really talking so I don't know where me and h sit. I feel like I am loosing him but can't bother not being boring. I'm mainly staring into space zoning out.