I'm having a very hard time being all alone today. Maybe it's because tomorrow is Easter, and that's a day of family dinners for many people. I don't want to go off the deep end, like I did at Christmas.

Today I truly felt unwell with a tummy issue, so I've stayed in pajamas all day. Now I really regret that I didn't leave the house for a few hours. When I do that, it makes my evening more ok. Instead, I kept lying down. That means I'll have a hard time getting sleep tonight. It will be a long night.

I went through an extended bad time earlier this year. It was months of depression with bad anxiety. Then I came out of it and was doing good for about a month or more. Today is the first big crack in my peace of mind. It's my fault because I haven't been working on getting out and involved with other people. I was busy enough with spring cleaning.

So now I'm telling myself not to go down into that depressive pit again. I think I can manage not to do that.

I really don't like Saturdays. I feel most alone on Saturdays.