I also am feeling desperate about my weight. It really doesn't matter so much except when I remember the past.

The bathroom here is an ever worsening source of depression and disgust. Someone attached the toilet seat wrongly and the cover cant be lifted up properly. You have to hold it up while sitting down and it's ridiculous and gross. Last night the [emoji200] left 2 big sh* t marks on the seat, and urine unflushed. I wanted to cry. I cleaned up one of them so I could pee. I can't go on like this. But I'm so upset I feel as if I try to say anything I'll explode on the social worker or something. Really need a vacation from this place.

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