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Originally Posted by JaneOnceMore
I feel miserable but i know it is partly the last day of a dull holiday weekend having it's last hurrah with me. In good news, i slept thru the night for the first time since my stomach ordeal started eleven days ago.
I'm Canadian and euthanasia for reasons of mental illness was supposed to have become available this March. But it was delayed for a year for further study, to get the wording right. One obstacle i have is my dog who i want to take care of for the balance of her life. She is ten, so there could be only four to eight more years.
I'm so tired and my life is so empty. I don't want to live anymore. Either i'm a raving lunatic or i'm inert. That's no way to live.
@ Samicat:
That's so cool that you've done stand-up comedy! Who, what, when, where, why and how? |
I'm really sorry you are feeling so bad. Do you want to say more about why you feel your life is empty or you don't want to live? I would like to talk to you about it - I've been there.
Re: the stand-up comedy - I took a class and did a few open-mic nights. Not much, but 2 professional comedians told me I had a good set. It's actually a really welcoming scene and people are supportive. Then we moved to another city. I haven't got back into it because it's not really what I long for - a published novel is my fondest wish. But I would consider doing comedy again and may join Toastmasters in the new city just to get used to public speaking.
Performing comedy does trigger my hypomania unfortunately. It's an awesome high but like most highs there's a comedown.