Have you actually read her notes? how do you know that she's blaming you though? all i know is that i have been to many therapists and you really do have to be careful what you are telling them, unfortunately some of them are just looking for faults and you don't know where you stand with them or it just could be part of the therapy. They are wanting to see what makes you thick like to get to some type of diagnosis who knows but my sincere advice to you would be if your gut is telling you something is wrong then chances are it is, you don't want to get entrapped in to something you can't get yourself out of.