I had a bad day yesterday because I felt put down because of my mother who alvays has to be the admired one. She puts med down with words and gestures, and nobody sent me a "we understand how you feel" body language. My mother is kind, but her way of being the admired one is not good to live with. It has been so all my life. I often feel confused and full of guilt afterward. Yesterday I had made a Boeuf Bourguignon in spite of headache and my hurting shoulder. My guests said it tasted good, but so it was my mother who made it once again, made me feel guilt.

May be I should be more overbearing. After all she is very old, now. I don't know ... I am the one left with the guilt feeling ...

(I have been at the dentist today. Still have pain in my head. Have found an app where I can keep track of my pain and take that to my GP after I return from Spain).