I’ve been sort of down and not wanting to socialize but Went to aqua fitness both Mon and today. Didn’t feel like being around people on Easter so stayed home. The weather has improved greatly, Sunny and warm. So that has helped a bit. Then today was the Easter dinner for the 500 club, seemed mean not to go, so went and I had a good time. Feels very artificial to talk to others but still it did help a bit. It’s not yet at the point I’d tell my pdoc anything, but I do fantasize about ending it. But that would just hurt too many people so it’s just a longing not to deal.