i don't want to live. i'm a failure. no, don't tell me i am not. i know the usual lines people say. i am a failure. i'm ugly. a 40 year old ugly man. i'm homeless and i just lost my job because my license is expired and i have to pass an exam to renew but i failed that. i'm too stupid. i don't know why i bother. i'm tired of jobs and i'm tired of trying to find a place to live. it's been like this for me since forever; losing job and housing and going back to my parents back and forth. i'm done. is there a way i can just be in a cabin somewhere where i can die in peace or assisted suicide? i'm done.