I have BPD. I have been in the bottom pits where I saw little hope. Then, I started to be alive again. Was doing well for 4 years. Now it seems to be exploding once again. I feel angry but have nothing to be angry about. I feel alone and afraid but have a lover and good friends. I am afraid to tell anyone that I once again don't feel too good in my head. I have tried to stay together, yet little by little seem to be falling apart!