So, back to this inheritance money...

I asked my lawyer for a copy of my husband's financial statement. If he doesn't send it to me, it will say something.

I had told the judge at the divorce hearing that I had read my husband's financial statement, but I didn't. I was mistaken. My brain must have been scrambled. I looked in my emails and saw that I never received it by email, and I don't recall reading it or being offered to read it in the lawyer's office the day I went in to sign the divorce paperwork.

My sister says that spiritually speaking, I shouldn't want any of my husband's inheritance, because it rightfully belongs to my husband. And I agree with this stance.

However, IF he did hide this from me, I will be irate. Does that mean I will try and go after some of this money now? I mean, I already erroneously told the judge I had read his financial statement. If the inheritance is included in this statement, then I don't have a leg to stand on. But if it's omitted, I might. There is a space in the financial statement for "Pending Inheritance".

I am not a money grubbing gold digger, but the thought of him pulling the wool over my eyes to hide this money from me makes me ill to my stomach... like he just got away with something HUGE, when I am struggling financially simply to live and survive.

On top of this, my lawyer had advised me NOT to tell the judge that I lost my job. He led me down the wrong path! I SHOULD have told the judge that my finances had changed since completing my own financial statement back in Dec... WHY did I listen to the lawyer, who is my husband's good friend?

I was seriously poorly advised... and I am kicking myself.

What if I could have gotten financial support through the divorce so that I can live and make ends meet without going further into debt and dealing with all this stress and pressure???

I am SO angry at myself for not being smarter and more self protective..... I feel SO incredibly STUPID. And my husband is probably grinning from ear to ear, thinking that I am SO STUPID.

My abuse advocate will connect me to free legal services next Tue. I need to speak with a different lawyer about all this. I. need to get to the bottom of it. I need to know my legal rights.