My parents told me many times over that if I wasn't feeling something a certain way, that I was just being silly and it was my fault for feeling, or not feeling, something.

I have spent decades trying to unlearn this message, but it's something that is very hard to do. But I'm trying.

I married someone because I thought that I should feel something for her, and my parents approved of her. But I'm not sure I ever really fell in love with her.

I'm trying to not repeat that same mistake. But it is very hard not to fall into old habits...