IÂ’m trying to get on a steady schedule with a therapist right now. ItÂ’s been difficult though, I also wonder to some extent if I am catastrophizing. IÂ’m sure there are people who would come across this post and think that my drinking is pretty tame. I recognize (though most of my family does not) that we have issues with emotional regulation. I have been trying to figure out exactly what those issues are for years now and to deal with them, I just hope that I havenÂ’t opened some sort of PandoraÂ’s box over this winter that has or will wreck my physical health and will now plague me for the rest of my life.