Ex T texted me today. It stirred up all kinds of feelings. I tried again to explain why I left. I took the blame. But it's like nothing satisfies her. I wish I knew what I could say that would make it okay for me to have left. Although she did say she was thinking of referring me out anyway but she was scared to. So I don't know why she is so upset still (I mean, I'm over it, but this just brought it back up!) if she was going to refer me out anyway. So confusing.