This nausea and heartburn and stomach pain is so bad I'm putting myself on the BRAT diet until I either can't deal with it anymore and have to the ER or it works and I can hang on until my appointment until June 14th. My therapist says I should only make myself throw up as a last resort. Therapy was kinda weird, but I think it was her and not me. She seemed kinda down and was literally doing the session lying down on her side.

She mentioned going through eating disorder stuff (her exact words) when she was in high school but didn't elaborate besides saying she drank a lot of Diet Coke.

I feel sick as **** right now. My mom is at the store. I think maybe if I eat something I'll feel better. Idk. I lost the thermomter somehow. I'm ready just to hurl into a bucket.

I did find a thermomter. My temp was normal. My blood pressure was good. My mom came back from the store. I ate a piece of bread, a rice cake, and a cup of apple sauce. Not totally the brat diet but close enough. My stomach feels better now. I barely ate all day.