I'm worried that you are going to terminate me today or say that terminating me is the only way to get me the more support I asked for.

I know it's a risk; it's in the set of possibles. This one I think is 50/50. What I don't know is if it is what you want - do you want to get rid of me. You've always said there are easier ways than this.

How do I trust you/this? I know you can care about me and terminate me at the same time. I'm f**** up. I want to say... just forget what I wrote. 1.66 hours to go. I've done pretty good up until the last hour or so. Now I wish I would have asked you about it last night.