The sun came out for the first time in a while today. Usually, It's cathartic and it does honestly make me feel better, makes me feel something.
Nothing. Not a single feeling, not a care. No spark. I know how bad it is now.

Insomnia and the nightmares are back, my sleep is shot to pieces and I feel absolutely exhausted. I really shouldn't be alone at the moment, but also no one seems to notice so that works I guess. It's not a problem if the mask stays up.

It just doesn't seem to mean much today.. Maybe it'll be better tomorrow, maybe it won't. Maybe it'll rain, maybe it'll be grey skies.